Long Time No Post?!

Sorry I haven't posted anything in a while. I just feel that nothing really great has happened for me to write about. I'm a pretty lame person. I don't drink, I don't party and I'm married and so I don't have much to really rant about. That which I do want to rant about I just do it with those that I know won't take offense to it because it seems that now in days people are very sensitive. Oh they can hurt you and ignore you but you can't ask for an explanation. But enough of that... unless you really want to hear me rant and if that is the case then let me know and that will be my next blog! :)

Friday, I took the day off. No, I didn't call off sick, I requested a personal day so that I could spend time with my broken hearted friend. We went to Disneyland and just had fun being us!

One of the last rides was It's a Small World, um I really didn't want to get on it. I remember how lame it is and well it still it. Celestie had forgotten but if you see the picture above you can see that she soon realized how lame it still is. That ride truly needs an update!

We were VERY happy to finally get out of the ride! My goodness I felt like it was a two hour ride! I was going crazy listening to that song!

Hey did you know that Disneyland isn't the happiest place for everyone? This billy goat wasn't too happy. The whole time we were playing with him he did not move! He was a very grumpy billy goat! But he posed very well for pictures!
So that was a fun filled day with my good friend Celestie. We went to Disneyland, checked in just about everywhere on Facebook which I'm sure drove people crazy. Sorry we were just having too much fun! :)


The next day, Saturday I went out with Mr. Husband. he missed me so much Friday. I was craving noodles and so we were on a hunt to find some that I was willing to try. Where did we end up? Ontario at a place called Pho Vietnamese noodles. I was pretty scared to try the new food, I'm a very picky eater and I have never been big on Asian food but Mr. Husband said that I would like it so I gave it a try...

I for one think that the noodles look like jellyfish... but no they were rice noddles. Very healthy I'm told.

My rice noodles with chicken! YUM! I like my food plain :)

Mr. Husband with his egg noddles and beef.

So what was the outcome? Did I like them? Will I go back? YES. YES. AND YES! I was actually craving them again Sunday night but we didn't want to drive out to Ontario yet again for the noodles. I plan to learn to make the chicken and noodles because they were just so yummy! I even tasted Mr. Husband's egg noodles and YUM! I liked those too.

I think this year is just going to be the year in which I try many new things... I wonder what else is in store for me! I can't wait! 

And so it begins...

What is one thing that all mothers fear for their daughters?

I would have to say... starting their period!

Why?

Because then this means that they are no longer your little girl. They're grown up and oh my goodness they can get pregnant now!! That is so scary!

All of you already know though, I do not have kids yet. So why am I so worried?

Simple... it's because of this face...

Our foster puppy Oreo who JUST turned one is now in heat! She got her first doggy period! Pucca never got her period because we fixed her. So now we have to go through this with Oreo. Oh that poor puppy! We were going to just keep her outside but since I just couldn't bring myself we went to Pet's Smart in hopes to be able to find something for her little problem.

And we did!! Yes, those are puppy diapers! 

From the left: Luna, Pucca and Oreo. They were smelling them wondering what it was we brought home. I think Oreo had an idea of what this could be since she started to want to sneak away. Who could blame her though...



Oh she does not look happy at all! But this is what needs to be done until I find out if she is going to get fixed by her owners. That or keep her outside and that will just break my heart to do that to her. So, Oreo is now wearing a diaper around the house. She's actually leaving it on which we did not think would happen. I hope this doesn't last too long.

I keep wondering if she has cramps. If she feels fat and if she is PMSing. I for one think that maybe she is PMSing since she got in a fight with both Pucca and Luna today before dinner. I wonder what her cravings are so that we could get her whatever her little heart desires. Too bad we have no idea so we just give her a few extra treats.



To drop or not to drop...

It’s the third week of classes and sadly I’m just not into it anymore. I honestly think that I wasn’t into it from the very beginning. I hate linguistics and having a professor that isn’t all that well at teaching doesn’t help. Mr. Husband keeps reminding me that I need to go to class, that I need to study and I need to just be positive. If not then I won’t get into the M.F.A program and then there goes another wasted year. But in reality, my heart just isn’t in it anymore. I have this week to make up my mind if I’m going to drop the class, Monday is the last day. I’m leaning on dropping rather than taking the class. Why? Well right now all I can really think about is going to the gym. That is all I really want to do!

I have this odd feeling and craving to just workout. I want to spend hours on end but with a full time job and then this annoying class I don’t have the time for it. Now, if I drop this class I will promise myself to go to the gym every day. BUT will I keep that promise? I have to be honest. No.

I know that I will end up making some excuse to just not go.

“Oh I don’t feel well”

“Oh I have cramps”

“Work drained me and I’m just too tired”

I can come up with many more reasons not to go to the gym. I know that I will just keep making excuses so that I don’t have to go, then I will find myself upset day after day because the weight is not coming off. How is it going to though if I’m not going to the gym? I should just get off of here; take a break and study for the writing task that awaits me in class today. Then tomorrow I will need to study for the quiz we will be having on Thursday. Oh the life of a student, I thought I missed it… how wrong was I!

Trying New Things...

Friday night Mr. Husband and I went out for a drive and we ended up having dinner at the World Famous Islamorada Fish Company Restaurant. The reason why we ended up there was because we wanted to try the alligator. I am not the type of person that is open to trying new types of foods. It's just hard for me. I'm such a picky eater and I'm so happy and thankful that Mr. Husband doesn't mind. YAY!

So we ordered the alligator appetizer and I tried to stay open minded. I need to just learn to take risks and try new things...

So out came in the alligator and just look how cute it looks! Well Juan tried it first like always and then it was my turn. I was surprised to find out that I ended up liking it! This is a must that everyone needs to try! The sauce that came with it made it all the more yummy!

When I ordered dinner I wasn't daring at all. I ended up just having a hamburger and fries. I only ate half of it and ended up wishing that I would have ordered what Juan ordered. He ended up having The Angler which is grilled mahi mahi, grilled shrimp and a pan seared lump crab cake.

Well actually all I really enjoyed was the mahi mahi. My goodness was that yummy!!!! I have never liked sea food well I love tuna but does that really count? Next time I'm going to just order the mahi mahi and from now on I am not going to be scared to try new things. I need to remind myself that I will never know what I might like. But just know that little by little I do try new things, it just takes me some time.

I hope you all try new things and make sure to go out and try the alligator! 

Why I Love Being Married

I’m not going to lie; I use to not want to get married. I remember telling my parents that I just wasn’t going to get married, ever. Why? Well because I saw marriage as a way to control the woman. I didn’t want to be stuck being controlled and not being able to live my life. I wasn’t allowed to do much growing up and getting married just seemed like a step down. I didn’t want to have to change my name to HIS name because I saw it as ownership. I didn’t want to change who I was. Needless to say, I was young and didn’t know much about marriage. I didn’t see anything positive about it. Oh how things have changed…

Now, going on five years this year of being married I have to say that I love being married! Now, I understand that marriage is not for everyone. I’m not saying that everyone needs to get married. Some people just do better without marriage in their relationship. There is nothing wrong with that. If you know what works for you and what works for your relationship then YAY! I’m happy for you.

This is why I love being married…

Companionship
Love
LaughterSex
Connection

Shared adventures and dreams
Passion Friendship
Staying in and watching a movie together
Deep conversations
Simple conversations

Hearing someone say “I LOVE YOU”
Being able to tell someone “I LOVE YOU”
All the inside jokes between us
Memories of past experiences together Trust

Support

Watching him change as years pass us by
Holding hands

Someone to wake up next to
Having a best friend

Having someone to spoil
Having someone to spoil you

Shared Values
Someone to help take care of you when you’re sick

Seeing him from across the room
Lazy weekends together

Shared responsibilities of life

Silliness together
A driver on road trips
Being out of the “dating scene”

Entering a room or restaurant together
Long kisses
Knowing I have a partner to go through life with

Now you don’t have to be married to have this, I’m sure many of you that are in wonderful committed relationships may have all of this already but this is why I love being married. Mr. Husband is the most amazing man I have ever met. He is always there to hold my hand, to make me smile and support me. Ten years ago I never thought I would find anyone that would make me want to change my thoughts or values. Then I met Husband, Juan Zamorano and my life turned upside down. Eight years ago we had our first kiss and went through a year of change. Today he is my husband, I am his wife and life couldn’t be better. I guess sometimes you just have to meet the right person and it has to be the right time in your life to want to get married. I’m happy that I was open minded and willing to change but I was only willing to change for him because of how deep my love ran. I'm thankful that he is not the husband I feared. He does not try to control me and didn't even mind when I didn't change my name and still haven't. I'm one lucky lady.

Why do you love being married? Why do you love being in a relationship?

Letter to Those at the Gym

Dear Fellow Gym Goer:

I have been patient with you, all of you! When I’m going to the gym in the afternoon I go because I want to be active after sitting on my butt for eight hours at work. I want to be able to sweat and feel that awesome burn I have been missing all day! I want to feel great after my work out! I want to be healthy and I want to stay healthy.

YET, I can’t do that because you make it impossible for me to utilize the machines I long to use!

If you’re done with the weight machine, get off. Please don’t sit there having your five minute break before you move to the next machine! If you didn’t know before please know now, there are plenty of areas to take your break. Very soft chairs that you can sit in and sleep in if your heart desires it! When you do finally get off the said weight machine PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE clean it! I do not want to sit in your butt sweat! I do not want to have to whip off your butt sweat with my towel that I use to wipe my face! I promise you it’s simple to just clean it and it doesn’t take any time.

Now if you plan to use the cardio machines, good for you! We all need cardio in our lives but actually USE the machine! Don’t stand there talking to your gym partner/friend about this and that. If you didn’t know you can actually talk and walk at the same time. I’m not saying you should run and talk, that might be asking too much of you. But walk and talk! I want to get my cardio in! Oh and those of you that hog the cardio machine during peak hours! Really? Must you stay on it for an hour and then a ten minute cool down? I want to at least use it for 20 minutes to get some kind of cardio in. Let’s play nice and share.

Oh and those of you that just stand around and talk, guess what just because you’re at the gym does not mean you’re working out. You actually have to do something. You have to be active. You have to work out! If you just stand and lean against the wall like at grade school dance you’re going to get nowhere! This is just annoying to me but at least you’re staying out of the way so I can’t be too annoyed with you.

I hope I have made myself clear and everything will work out perfectly from now on.

Respectfully,

ME!


Example of what NOT to do



Saturday... so in love!

Saturday was so busy and amazing!

It started off with me driving the GT3000, I just learned how to drive stick last year and haven't really driven it because I don't like taking it out in the rain. Well it's more like Husband not wanting to take it out in the rain. I keep telling myself that I will start driving it to work but I always hold back. I have yet to drive it on the freeway out of fear that I might stall out. Just look at that blue beauty!!! It's amazing!

While my car was getting serviced we took our baby Pucca (American Bulldog) to the groomers. We took her to this new place called Pet Scene in Yucaipa. You're able to wash your puppy using professional groomer supplies and buy organic stuff for your pets! The place is very friendly and they treated Pucca the way she should be treated. They even have snacks and water for dogs. Everyone who has a pet and loves them like their own children needs to take them there! We plan to go back all the time and take our other babies! The owner use to work at CSUSB and I use to work with her.







Driving to Pet Scene

 


Fun in the tub




"Daddy is giving me the best bath ever!"





Nap time after Pucca's bath







Goodies!!!

Saturday night we went to go have dinner with friends at the Mission Inn, Bella Trattoria. It was our first time there and my goodness I have fallen in love! I can't wait to go back again. The food is amazing and well you have to just love the surroundings! Who doesn't love the Mission Inn, Riverside? Husband fell in love with the place too. I guess we'll be finding ourselves there more often!



Yummy Dinner!!!



After dinner we stopped by at Casey's Cupcakes! YUM! Way better than Sprinkle's Cupcakes! They have the cutest place ever! So much pink and so many cute cupcakes to choose from! Looks like people will be getting Casey Cupcakes for their birthdays! The box is so cute that it comes in! All it needs is a ribbon!

After we left Riverside, Husband and I took off to go watch The Green Hornet. I had a lot of doubt about that movie. I was simply going because Husband wanted to watch it. I thought it was going to be one of those dumb funny movies. It turns out that the movie is great! It's funny and extreamly entertaining.

Now, Sunday night. Today we did nothing. We were so tired from yesterday and I am so happy that I got to spend such a fun and amazing day with Husband. It has been a while since we have had a whole day of outings. I'm happy that we made the time and that Husband was willing to out go even when he doesn't have a voice, well not much of one. He knew that I had been wanting to go out for a while and I had been wanting to have dinner at the Mission Inn for some time. For Husband to go ahead with our plans even though he's still sick makes me so happy and thankful. He is such an amazing man! I love him so much!

If you haven't been to the Mission Inn, Riverside for dinner yet, go! Make sure to stop by Casey's Cupcakes as well!



Back to School

After three and a half years I’m back in the class.



Textbook and notebook



I was so nervous on my way to class, I felt like I didn’t know what I was doing and I felt so lost. It was as though it was my first day in college all over again! I was terrified that I was in the wrong class; I double checked the class number three times! Then I sat there for five minutes and I was sure everyone thought I was the professor because I was dressed in my work attire. I didn’t know what to do with myself while waiting. I had nothing to read, nothing to look over so I just sat there and played with my phone. Pathetic.

Then I started to worry that something was going to go wrong at the office. I left an hour early and Assistant wasn’t there so the office was closed for a bit which never really happens. A professor still hadn’t picked up his syllabi and it was stressing me out. Not a good feeling to have while in class. Thankfully Assistant got back to the office in time to let the professor in.

Finally the professor walked in, introduced himself and bounced from one topic to the next. He seemed so nervous and shy. Turns out if I stay in the class I’m going to have to teach myself the topic which I hate. I have yet to find one person that thinks linguistics is fun and interesting. I now have to be positive and just keep up with the book and crazy notes that he has. He asked the class what we want to get from this class… well what do I want? I want a B or better so that I can get into the MFA program!

Now how much do I want to get into this graduate program? This morning I woke up and thought for a bit, which means I thought all morning and I’m still thinking! Do I really want to go to graduate school? It wasn’t until a year after I graduated with my bachelors that I thought that maybe this would be something that I would do. Never once during my undergrad did I think about going to graduate school. Me get a master’s degree? Why?  In what? And if I do get my degree what am I going to do with it? In all reality what I want most in life is to be happy and to travel and have babies with the most amazing man ever! Would it bother me to work at a university all my life? No, as long as I’m happy and in love then I’m blissful. It has always been a pleasure in my life to help people and working here I help students, professors and staff every day! I don’t take work home and I have my weekends off. What more can I ask for? I don’t need to be rich to be happy. Yet, there is one goal/dream that is haunting me from my childhood. To be a published writer! To have my name out there! This is why I want to get into the MFA program but I don’t need to have a degree to write. Look at me now, am I not writing? Is my name not out there now? Well yes, but I want to write books of short stories. I want to write a novella (type of book of short stories). I want this so bad and yet I always make so many excuses and tell myself that there is always tomorrow for that. Tomorrow never comes though and maybe the program will teach me to be more responsible and teach me to be a more active writer.

As much as I would like to drop the class I’m not going to. It’s not like I’m paying for it. Lucky for me working for the university allows me to take classes free. I just have to push myself and make time for my studies and dreams. I always push everyone else now I need to push myself. I can do this and I will do this. I know what I want in life and I won’t let anyone’s negative thoughts ruin my state of mind.

People Think I'm Pretty? REALLY?!?!?!

“You’re so pretty!”

These are words I never expect anyone to tell me. Why? Well I don’t think I’m pretty. I’ve never seen myself as a pretty girl. When I was younger I was always the one chasing not being chased. Guys never asked me out in high school and the one year I was single in college I really didn’t get any attention. When I would get some attention it would be because my best friend at the time would make me chaperon her dates. The guys would then get to know me and would then somehow be interested in me. How I saw it, it wasn’t because of my looks but because of my personality. That’s what I think gets guys attention. I’m sweet, nice, loving, smart, witty and I know how to take a joke.

Yesterday at work I was told that I’m always looked at. That I’m seen as eye candy to the men that I work with, now when I was told this I just laughed! Me? Eye candy? What curl joke are they trying to play on me? I dress preppy, conservative and try to always cover up but I guess there are times that I am busting out when I don’t intend for that to happen. I guess it’s true but no one ever makes it obvious because I don’t notice it.

Then one of the student assistants came in to have me sign off on paperwork and hung out in the office. I for one think that it’s because she has a crush on my assistant. Well yesterday she said she loves coming into our office because it’s always so welcoming and cheerful. Then she said, “Plus I like Chuck and you’re so pretty!” That took me off guard. I was sure I misunderstood but she ran out of the office back to the second floor before I had a chance to say anything. I then asked Chuck (my assistant) what she said and he looked at me serious “She said YOU’RE SO PRETTY” he even made it a point to point right at me (as if there is anyone else in the office). Needless to say I was in shock all day and still am.

I’m pretty? People think I’m pretty? There are beautiful girls that think I’m pretty? Really? When did this happen? Why can’t I see it? I thought that maybe I’m cute but pretty? Eek, that just seems too much for me to even think as a reality. I’ve always heard “oh you would be so pretty if…” and so because I could never change that IF I always thought okay I’m not. Yet, now I’m starting to think that maybe, just maybe I am… I need to look at myself in the mirror and just say “Debbie, you’re pretty” and I need to believe it. One day I will…

Finally the holidays are over!

Yes, its nice to spend time with family and spend the holidays with the people you love but the truth is, this time around I wasn't feeling it. December flew by and the last week of the year I was sick. How? I have no idea. I'm always so careful and dress warm but I guess it was just time to get sick. Thankfully I'm getting better and tomorrow it's back to work after a two week vacation.

I'm actually happy about going back to work. I feel that all I have been doing is sleeping and if that is all I'm doing I might as well get back to my routine. Work. This year though there will be many changes! I go back to school next week! I will be taking an English course to get getting to apply for the MFA program. I have also promised myself to make more time to work out because I hate feeling so stiff. My joints are starting to feel awful! So after work I'll just get to the gym as I use to but Tuesday & Thursdays it is going to be time for the books!

This year is going to be a good year. So much change is coming and I'm excited for it!! But I won't let my little secrets out just yet. They say the more you talk about your goals the less likely you are to reach them and so I will keep my goals hush hush for now but little by little I will reach them!

I hope you all had wonderful holidays and have a beautiful new year!