Things Change...

There was a time in which I was a size 0; yes, I’m sure that to many of you that is hard to believe.

I am now a size 10/12 and I'm happier now then I was then.

There are a few times that I do feel FAT but that is only because I let other people make me feel this way. I let them hurt me and scare me; I let them push me down when I’m happy with myself. They only do this though because they're not happy with the way they look, admit it negative people! 

They say, real women have curves and oh my goodness! Do I have curves! 

I have hips to spare that made me look wide at times but most of the time just make me stand out in good positive, beautiful ways. I have a butt that makes Mr. Husband go crazy and a bust that is a little above average when it feels like it. I have strong beautiful legs that have scars that can tell you stories. And yes, I have a little gut but I don’t work out often and I eat what I want, when I want. I don't stop myself from having what I love or worry people around me about what I can and can't eat. 

Skinny isn’t the only beauty (but still beautiful), I am beautiful with curves. There are so many women out there that feel they're not pretty enough because of whatever reasons they can come up with. If I wanted to be negative and focus on what people say then I would be a sad person, I don't want that. I have enough to worry about in life. Let’s not focus on the negative, let’s focus on the positive. You are beautiful just the way you are. If you are unhappy for one reason or another stop being negative and start doing something about it. There are very few things that bother me about myself, I can count them on one hand. 

1. I wish I could lose 3-5 inches from my tummy 

2. I wish I was a little more tone

3. I wish my knees didn't look so big 

NOW... I can be negative about this and cry about it or I can do something about it. 

THE SOLUTION: I just need to go back to the gym and workout for an hour a day and in a few weeks/months I will see the results I want to see. Do I do it? Nope. Whose fault is that? 

MY OWN. 

I will NOT starve myself, I will NOT do some crazy diets that will only hurt myself. When I want to drop the weight I will do it on my own and on my time. Maybe I'll start this week, maybe I'll start next week or month. What I want all of you to get from this is that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! No matter where you are in your life, no matter how you look. If you want change then do it but do it on your own terms. NOT because someone told you that you look fat, not because someone told you that you are too skinny (I use to hear this years ago and it hurts just as much as being called fat). If you're not ready for that change then don't fear going up a size or down a size, so that your outfit will fit better. There are times that I need to reach for the bigger size and you know what? I look better in the bigger size than the smaller. Don't let negativity hold you back. I once let that happen to me and all that I got from it is sadness. Thankfully I have changed and will never again let anything hold me back. So please, don't let anything hold you back in living your life. Life is short and we must make the best of it! 

I'm only 26 and in my life I have been told that I am too skinny and so that is why guys don't like me and I have been told that I am too fat and maybe if I lost 50 pounds I would look better in certain outfits. Either way it hurt and now I'm happy to say that NOTHING and NO ONE will ever be allowed to hurt me again. 

Busy Day at Work!

Eek! Today was such a busy day at work, I kept going nonstop! I didn't even have time for lunch, I went and got some Taco Bell and ate it up real fast. It's hard to eat healthy when I'm at work and I don't pack my lunch. I did do some research before I ate and saw that the tacos are only 170 calories and they have tacos that are 150 calories. So my lunch was only 490 calories, I had water to go with my lunch.

I got home and well Juan bought Burger King. NOT GOOD. So I forced myself to go on a run. It wasn't a very good run but I have to start somewhere and at least Oreo and Pucca got to go on a run with me. It's so hard to run with Pucca, she wants to sprint down the street and pull the lease to make me go faster. NOT FUN! Oreo on the hand is amazing to run with! She just jogs and doesn't get distracted at all with the other dogs barking at her. I guess for now Oreo will be my running partner and Pucca will be my walking partner.

So I read this amazing blog Love and Running and there is this picture that Val (the blogger) posted which I just love!

For those of you that know me, know that I have thick legs and what I'm going to aim for is not to get rid of my thick legs. No, what I am going to aim for is to have toned, muscular legs! I want to be able to say that I have thunder thighs! Yes, I want to lose weight but I don't want to be skinny to be honest. I was the size zero and I wasn't happy with myself then. I wasn't happy that I looked like a little girl. I wasn't happy that nothing fit. I wasn't happy that I had no curves. Today, I'm happy for my hips, my butt, my thighs and all my curves because they make me feel like a woman! What I want to do more than anything is to tone! I want to slim down the tummy and I want to feel good but still have those curves that make the Husband go crazy!

This is my goal and I will not stop until I obtain it!

Maybe I should post monthly pictures so that I can see how close I'm getting to achieve my goal!

Thoughts?