A Ramble of a Passion

It doesn't matter what emotion I'm going through, there is always one passion that I've always turned to. It's my default. I can be depressed, sad, mad, happy, stressed or restless in the end what I find myself doing time and time again is writing. 


Which is why I have always loved keeping a blog. 


Which is why I always carry a notebook with me. 


Which is why I am the proud owner of the callus on my right hand ring finger. 


Which is why so many of my friends and Mr. Husband receive extremely long text messages. 


Which is why I have such amazing and different penmanship. 


There is just something about it that I find relaxing and beautiful. There is just something about it that can instantly make my day better. I can be writing a letter, a note, just about anything and I will feel as though I have accomplished something. 


I've been writing since I was in grade school and I have always loved it. In college I majored in English with a concentration in Creative Writing. This major focused on two of my passions; reading and writing. I should have minored in art... opps. 


If this is what makes me happy...
If this is what I love...
If this is what I'm always doing with my free time... 


Why am I so scared of it? Why then do I allow people tell me it's a waste of time? Why then am I scared to push myself to make it into a career? Why am I scared to continue my education in writing?


I have never been the person to care for money. 
I have never been the person that longs to be rich. 
I have never been the person that longs for fame. 


My goal in life has always been the same: I want to be happy. 
If in fifty years from now I can look back and say "yes, I lived a happy life" then I will be proud of myself. I will feel accomplished in life. 


And so... 


From this point on I will only do that which makes me happy. I've done it this for the most part in the past but sometimes... many times I stop myself so that I can make others happy. So that I can met the expectations of others. This stops now because this is my life and I'm not being selfish, I will not let others tell me I'm being selfish.


I just want to be happy and happy I will be. 


The simple thought of it makes me smile... 

Busy Day at Work!

Eek! Today was such a busy day at work, I kept going nonstop! I didn't even have time for lunch, I went and got some Taco Bell and ate it up real fast. It's hard to eat healthy when I'm at work and I don't pack my lunch. I did do some research before I ate and saw that the tacos are only 170 calories and they have tacos that are 150 calories. So my lunch was only 490 calories, I had water to go with my lunch.

I got home and well Juan bought Burger King. NOT GOOD. So I forced myself to go on a run. It wasn't a very good run but I have to start somewhere and at least Oreo and Pucca got to go on a run with me. It's so hard to run with Pucca, she wants to sprint down the street and pull the lease to make me go faster. NOT FUN! Oreo on the hand is amazing to run with! She just jogs and doesn't get distracted at all with the other dogs barking at her. I guess for now Oreo will be my running partner and Pucca will be my walking partner.

So I read this amazing blog Love and Running and there is this picture that Val (the blogger) posted which I just love!

For those of you that know me, know that I have thick legs and what I'm going to aim for is not to get rid of my thick legs. No, what I am going to aim for is to have toned, muscular legs! I want to be able to say that I have thunder thighs! Yes, I want to lose weight but I don't want to be skinny to be honest. I was the size zero and I wasn't happy with myself then. I wasn't happy that I looked like a little girl. I wasn't happy that nothing fit. I wasn't happy that I had no curves. Today, I'm happy for my hips, my butt, my thighs and all my curves because they make me feel like a woman! What I want to do more than anything is to tone! I want to slim down the tummy and I want to feel good but still have those curves that make the Husband go crazy!

This is my goal and I will not stop until I obtain it!

Maybe I should post monthly pictures so that I can see how close I'm getting to achieve my goal!

Thoughts?