Happy Birthday to Husband!

Today was/is Husband's birthday. He had to go to work today though but he didn't mind. He is so responsible and he is very dedicated to his job. How old is Husband today? TWENTY-SEVEN! My goodness I still remember when he was SEVENTEEN! How time has flown by!

Just look at that baby face of his!

Again, today it has been raining non-stop. I went over my parents' house for breakfast, have I mentioned that I live next door to my parents? So all I had to do was walk right over, no need for driving. I spent so much time with my mom, just talking and then we sat down and she tried to teach me to knit (two needles). My goodness I never knew just how hard that can be! But with time and practice I will be able to add knitting to one of my many talents/passions. She was learning how to make cupcakes from YouTube. My baby brother wanted an Army looking cupcake. So far it looks really cute! My sister-in-law gave me a hot pink cupcake and I have it in my Christmas tree... I think next year I will fill my tree up with cupcakes!! I hope it looks nice. I'll spend the whole year making cupcakes. Should be fun! First I have to learn how to make them!

When Juan got home he had to take off again for his appointment. While he was gone I made him some chocolate cupcakes, no frosting because Husband doesn't really care for frosting. I got to use my cupcake maker that Husband got me for our three year anniversary.



Yummy chocolate batter! I couldn't help but sneak a little taste! YUMMY!!!

Yeah I was a little mess, could you blame me? It's my first time
using it.

The yummy outcome!


My goodness just look at those amazing cupcakes!! They look perfect!!! If you are planning on getting the cupcake maker I say you get it! It is so much fun and it is so cute!! The cupcakes get baked so fast! I was amazed! I honestly thought it was going to take forever to bake but no! Sure you can only bake six at a time but it isn't so bad.

When Husband came home he changed and we went to dinner at Olive Garden. After that we went to Starter Brother's and shopped for the Christmas dinner we plan to have at our house. I hope all goes well and works out. It will be only with my in-laws but it will be nice.

Tomorrow I hope the rain isn't to awful. I did notice that when I was at my parents' house the rain wasn't so bad but I was having such a nice time with my mom that I didn't want to leave. I will head straight to the gym for two hours and then if time permits spend time with my Mama again :)

Before I take off I must also say that it was/is my big brother's birthday. Husband and him share the same birthday. I sent him his gift and he LOVED it. I'm so happy that he did because I wasn't sure if he would.

Today was such a wonderful day, life is so beautiful, even when the rain is non-stop.

Yesterday was yesterday, today is a new day...I hope.

My goodness yesterday was such an awful day.

I didn't want to be at work, everything was bothering me and nothing nor no one was able to make me happy. I just wanted to go home put on my running shoes and just run. I didn't get to do that though. I stayed at work and did what I had to do like a responsible adult. I honestly feel like I just need a break from work, not a weekend but a few weeks. Winter break is coming up but I feel like that isn't even near enough to what I need.

What made things worse is the one person I would hope to pay some attention to me just wouldn't. He was just ignoring me. Yes, husband was being mean to  me yesterday but he didn't mean it. He has so much going on with him that I need to learn to just be independent. The thought of that just made me feel worse. It's depressing to think just how much his time overseas changed him and how a part of him died. Yes, he came back to me but he isn't the same. I've learned to accept it but there are moments in which I just break down. Maybe with time things will change, I will feel better and this won't be an issue for me anymore.

When I got home from a long day at work I noticed the house was very clean and dinner was made. I didn't ask husband if he had cleaned the house because at the moment I just needed silence. After dinner I went over my parents' house and the first thing my mom asked me was if I was mad. I had no reason to be but then she asked if I was mad because she and my dad cleaned the my house! I was in aww! My parents had gone over my house to get some wrapping paper (yes, they have keys to my house) and I guess they took it upon themselves to clean the house. I had been putting it off for a few weeks now, planning to just clean everything during my winter break. Now all I have to do is just keep it up. I'm so thankful to have such wonderful caring parents. This made my day feel so much better. I felt loved!

Then darkness came, and off to bed we went to get our much needed rest for work the next day (today). While laying there I just cried, something in me just needed to let everything go and when I did I felt better. In all reality sometimes you just need to cry, let all the awfulness of the day out and just be a mess for a while.

Today is a new day, while I still don't feel 100% better it is a lot better than how I felt yesterday! I'm just sitting around listening to beautiful music and trying to laugh and smile as much as I can!

I can't stop listening to this song, yes, it's from Twilight but worry not I am not one of those crazy Twilight fan, I'm hardly a fan. I was forced to read the books.